Yeah thats right! Today I faced my fears. Well one of my fears. I went to the dentist, and i didn't cause a scene or cry and I actually went thru with my whole filling procedure. I know what your thinking.. wow its just the dentist, its not like you faced a fear of heights, or a clowns. I know, I know. But all my life I have had the biggest fear of going to the dentist office for anything more than a cleaning. I blame it on the many bad experiences that I had to go thru as a child. My fear was so bad that I got kicked out of my childhood dentist office and was forced to go somewhere in raleigh where they strap kids down on a straight jacket board. if that doesn't scare the hell out of a child I don't know what does. But always, I am rambling now, I think you all get how big my fear is. but today, I faced my fear and I could not be more proud of myself.
I had a funny moment with the whole laughing gas experience, but before I get to that it is crucial that I tell you that my dentist is H-O-T. like sloan mc.steamy h-o-t. I left my dental consult last week knowing that I was going to be on laughing gas for my procedure earlier today to calm my nerves. So, for a week I was praying to God that I didn't take too much laughing gas to the head and tell him how pretty he really is, start drooling, or basically do anything embarrassing…
So the hygienist started the laughing gas and explained to me that I would start feeling a bit loopy, well that was quite an understatement. Within minutes I felt like my whole body was floating, and I started talking some crazy talk to my boyfriend cory. yes cory went with me for moral support. but don't worry I already explained to him that the dentist was attractive and apologized for anything that came out of my mouth, thats okay right? So after what seemed like ten minutes of the crazy talk and having no control over my body I decided to tell the nurse that I didn't think the laughing gas was the best choice for me. Unfortunate for her because I'm sure I would have been quite the entertainment.
Long story short, I made it thru the whole procedure with flying colors and no attraction confession. I would say that this was quite a successful day. now if i could just feel my lips. Cory treated me to a chocolate milkshake, that I barley got any of due to the fact that it kept running out of my mouth but all is good. I can honestly say that I will not be canceling any dentist appointments out of fear anymore, and that I think i found a dentist that I can finally feel at ease with. funny huh?ha
Today taught me that I want to start facing my fears more often. I honestly do not think that I have enough fears or situations that I could put myself in to say that I want to do it everyday. But when the chance arises I want to take it with a smile on my face, knowing how proud I will feel once I accomplish something that I never thought I could.
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